When I am feeling down, I grow a set of wings to lift myself up, like a bird, so I can poop on my enemies heads!

Ok...a realization has come about me that I may have stretched the truth a tad when I said I would not delve into my inner thoughts. Upon reviewing my last post some months after I had written it, it seems as though I may have expressed more of myself then originally planned and I will continue to do so throughout the entirety of my blog. Lately, a negative atmosphere has descended upon me and I am reflecting this onto those closest to me (a.k.a. my father). The fact that my dad and I have never gotten along too well and I still consider him useless may impact and deepen the angry haze that clouds my mood when I am near him. The reason for our troubles arise from my childhood and his lack of being in it. When he was a part of it, his actions tainted the memories that could have been beautiful. I am sorry for dampening my reader's mood, I had no intention of speaking of this, but sometimes things must be said in order to move on and mend bridges. Don't worry, I will soon lighten the mood and place a smile upon your face, just hang on a smidgen! What I want to convey is that I honestly think that my relationship with my father has darkened because I am near him so often during this summer. I really need a break from him and his lack of maturity though I will also try harder to be nicer to him when he is around. Anywho, onto something more lighthearted! I have recently been the subject of multiple interactions with the opposite sex that may make you laugh. I was at work a few weeks ago and a man, around the age of 45, came up to me and told me how cool my hair was (which I had no objection to...though it was quite odd). At approximately noon that same day, the man walked into the back room where I was bathing a dog and asked me out. Do I look 40 years old?! I am nineteen! I am always for a more "experienced" man, but 40?! Really?! And a 40-year-old working a PetSmart?! No way in God's green Earth would I even consider you! I have been rethinking that day over and over again in my head and laughing more violently each time. Never a dull moment.

When trouble comes my way, I look it in the eye, kick it in the balls, and tell it to go away!

         Lately things have seem to be happening. I can't exactly explain what I consider "happening," but it's almost like a change in the atmosphere. In my first blog I said that I wouldn't talk about my problems or heartaches and I plan on keeping this promise. I think this "happening" that I have been feeling is a change in me and my atmosphere. We all evolve, shape, reshape, and mold ourselves based on those we spend most of our time with whether we try to or not, it happens. My atmosphere is changing, I can feel it and I don't know if it is for the better or worse. I love my life, I will tell anyone who approaches me and asks how I feel that my life is going great and I am loving pretty much every second of it. I look out my window every morning and smile to myself because I have been blessed to experience another day of my life, Abby's life. Today is the first time I have been  home from college in awhile and I have finally been able to sit down and evaluate where my character stands at this moment. Actually, at this moment I should be studying and completing homework for my classes, but I feel as though this "me time" needs to occur.
          I like the person I have become, but there seems to be some edginess developing about me and my personality that, I believe, may result in some bad decisions in the future. I am not saying that I am going to go and become some crazy wild child of the night or anything, but I am becoming a little more relaxed and not as tightly wound and controlled; I am becoming more free. I don't know where this new side of me will travel, but I am willing to give anything a try and hope for the best, but I will always be willing to accept the consequences, whatever they might be. Yes, I am now noticing that I may have stretched my promise of not getting sappy and mushy on you a little, but believe me when I say that I am as happy as a clam and content with where I stand. This ground that I walk upon is stable and unyielding, ready to take on anything that comes its way and I am going to try my hardest to keep the ground close to me and myself grounded at all times. Sorry if I just turned poetic on you all...I tend to do that. We all have to have our crazy little quirks, it makes us who we are and I am learning to embrace that and run with it wherever it may lead me. Enjoy life cause you never know when you will breath your last breath.

When life gives me water balloons, I throw them at people.

When I first began hearing about blogging, my reaction was, " Why would people want to share their personal problems and feeling with the world? Aren't those supposed to be kept inside and not shown to strangers or even some friends?" I then began to think about the type of people who created blogs and I came to the conclusion that some people need an outlet to express opinions and emotions that are weighing them down. I, personally, never share my deep thoughts nor do I have any desire to share them with the world or even my friends. I like the way I think and deal with my problems. Some people think it strange that I sometimes have periods of quietness or even solitude. What people don't understand about me is that I am an only child and therefore I enjoy quietude and take solace in the moments when I can just think, ponder, and observe those around me. I want to use this blog to express random thoughts, observations, and crazy dreams I have had and I promise you there will be no analyzing of deep feelings nor personal problems.