When trouble comes my way, I look it in the eye, kick it in the balls, and tell it to go away!

         Lately things have seem to be happening. I can't exactly explain what I consider "happening," but it's almost like a change in the atmosphere. In my first blog I said that I wouldn't talk about my problems or heartaches and I plan on keeping this promise. I think this "happening" that I have been feeling is a change in me and my atmosphere. We all evolve, shape, reshape, and mold ourselves based on those we spend most of our time with whether we try to or not, it happens. My atmosphere is changing, I can feel it and I don't know if it is for the better or worse. I love my life, I will tell anyone who approaches me and asks how I feel that my life is going great and I am loving pretty much every second of it. I look out my window every morning and smile to myself because I have been blessed to experience another day of my life, Abby's life. Today is the first time I have been  home from college in awhile and I have finally been able to sit down and evaluate where my character stands at this moment. Actually, at this moment I should be studying and completing homework for my classes, but I feel as though this "me time" needs to occur.
          I like the person I have become, but there seems to be some edginess developing about me and my personality that, I believe, may result in some bad decisions in the future. I am not saying that I am going to go and become some crazy wild child of the night or anything, but I am becoming a little more relaxed and not as tightly wound and controlled; I am becoming more free. I don't know where this new side of me will travel, but I am willing to give anything a try and hope for the best, but I will always be willing to accept the consequences, whatever they might be. Yes, I am now noticing that I may have stretched my promise of not getting sappy and mushy on you a little, but believe me when I say that I am as happy as a clam and content with where I stand. This ground that I walk upon is stable and unyielding, ready to take on anything that comes its way and I am going to try my hardest to keep the ground close to me and myself grounded at all times. Sorry if I just turned poetic on you all...I tend to do that. We all have to have our crazy little quirks, it makes us who we are and I am learning to embrace that and run with it wherever it may lead me. Enjoy life cause you never know when you will breath your last breath.